She is trying to make me think that I abused her the same way I was abused. She thinks that what I did to her as a 25 year old adult who is capable of making her own decisions is exactly the same as what happened to me at the age of between 8 and 16. A child who relied upon the adults that abused, to protect him.
She thinks that because I hit her in a blackout fit of rage 3 times in all of our 22 years of marriage, is the same as being raped over and over and over and over again by somebody your suppose to look up too. It has the moral equivalent of being beat with a hotwheels track on a weekly basis. It wasn't 1 time a week sometimes it started on Friday and lasted until dear old dad had to go to work on Monday.
She needs to go to battered woman's shelter and spend one day talking to those women then she can talk about abuse. I never once said that I didn't hit her. But she was an adult, and just like today, she has her family to help her. I have nobody except my friends.
For her to equate what I had control over as a child to what happened to her as a fully grown adult. If she truly thinks she has been abused and wants me to go with her to therapy, as I have always told her I will do what ever is necessary to help her.
She refuses to get the help she needs and then blames me for her inaction's, so I won't accept the blame. I take responsibility for those actions I did. I was sick and need help back then. I can't do anything about the past and since she wants to live in la la world, I can't help her either.
I also won't roll over and play dead for her either. She needs to take responsibility for what she has done to me. She has made me the bad guy to my children for all of their years. She's sitting outside my door right now and telling to kill myself. Geez where does my son get it from.
I know she is doing this to provoke me. Thank god I have freinds.
She thinks that because I hit her in a blackout fit of rage 3 times in all of our 22 years of marriage, is the same as being raped over and over and over and over again by somebody your suppose to look up too. It has the moral equivalent of being beat with a hotwheels track on a weekly basis. It wasn't 1 time a week sometimes it started on Friday and lasted until dear old dad had to go to work on Monday.
She needs to go to battered woman's shelter and spend one day talking to those women then she can talk about abuse. I never once said that I didn't hit her. But she was an adult, and just like today, she has her family to help her. I have nobody except my friends.
For her to equate what I had control over as a child to what happened to her as a fully grown adult. If she truly thinks she has been abused and wants me to go with her to therapy, as I have always told her I will do what ever is necessary to help her.
She refuses to get the help she needs and then blames me for her inaction's, so I won't accept the blame. I take responsibility for those actions I did. I was sick and need help back then. I can't do anything about the past and since she wants to live in la la world, I can't help her either.
I also won't roll over and play dead for her either. She needs to take responsibility for what she has done to me. She has made me the bad guy to my children for all of their years. She's sitting outside my door right now and telling to kill myself. Geez where does my son get it from.
I know she is doing this to provoke me. Thank god I have freinds.
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